Desire

How can I suppress such strong desires? I have to wait, patiently in trust and obedience, in submission. I have nothing to offer. Prepare me, this I ask.

For now, it has to be concealed deep in this heart. Until that day comes.

Time with Emily

This week has been colored by Emily. I feel like I’m one of those pages in her art journal book. Where she whimsically just paint and draws, and I find myself amused and cared for indirectly like how a plain piece of page suddenly comes to life thanks to the artist’s “impressions”.

I prayed for her yesterday, prayed that she would find her way, find her Call, find Life with Him. I layed her before Him, trusting that He would keep her safe…

It’s been a year

I’m starting out again. A year has almost past, so much has occured, so much to afraid and shameful of but I will hide no longer. I will start a fresh, thanks to those who have stood by me through my depression, to my God who kept reminding of His faithfulness, may the rest of my life be lived in faith, hope & love with Him and those He has given me. It starts here.